Today... i woke up at 4 p.m. I just realise that i have a habit.. That's is "long kai" by driving my car.... It's make feel so nice... When i'm back i read my gf blog... Then i saw in the chat box.. Someone is scolding her... FIrst say my gf black... Then say puki la lu... What the fuck man.. How could i let my gf let peopel scold??!!! I should protect her... I damn angry at the particullar moment. I then scold the person... Damn kick the girl scolded by me... Then i saw my gf online.. So i tell her what had just happen... OHHH NOOOOO..... Actually tat's her fren and that their conversation style... I'm so embarrassed... Then i say sori n tell my gf tat i thought is other people.. And my gf reply say don so mean... For me... I'm not reli wan to be mean... Just i wont let my gf let other peopel bully.. I stay so far from her then cant protect her... Now we cant even communicate in phone because of sme fucking prob.... AM I A GOOD BOYFRIEND??? OR JUST A LOSER......
I talk to myself..Should i just get out from her fucking life??? Mayb i reli should... But the problem is i damn love her... I really really love her.... Mayb her love towards me is decreasing... But is doesn't even matter because my love towards her infinity... WHY??!!!!!!!!!! WHY????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The answer is i don't know... Please help me.... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
What life is it???
I'm writing this message at 5.15 in the morning. What the fuck is happening to me. I think i'm crazy or have psychological prob mayb. This week, the earliest i can is 4++ in the morning. I'm too damn fucking free n so fucking useless. I don't know what can i do and what should i do. What i only know is play snooker, dota, sleep, eat, drink.................... Nothing else...
Yesterday night, i damn miss her. Before she sleep i sent one message to her.. Written " Biee.. Sleep tight.. Muakss... Miz u... Love u... Remember msg(MESSAGE) me when u wake k? " Reply " Ok.. Love u too.. Nite ... Sweet dream" But unfortunely, when i woke up at 3 in the afternoon, i not even receive a gud morning message from her.. What else could i ask for???? Only one simply message is hard for her.. What do u think if i ask her to tell me what she doing or anything..She cant even done it for me... NONE... Today i miss her so much...... She did the same thing.. It still fine because i'm already feel nothing about her action and attitude. I wait and wait. I wait for one afternoon but still not even a miss call.... Do u think she still love u???? How come someone love u can don't care what u doing or anything..... But she reli did it.. She can ignore me for few days then when she realise that something is missing then she will find me back.. Then she will act worry or something like that... Is this call love?? Mayb this is love or mayb my way of loving people is wrong.. I reli need accompany and love.. I really hope that she can always message me.. So that i know that what she doing and she really miss me... We live so far away... I studying in aus and she studying at malaysia.. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ......
Now i really thinking that should i need to break up with her or i must break up with her????!!!!!!!!!!! It's really stress me up because i really don't know how to continue this kind of relationship. It's FUCKING SUCKS................!!!!!!!!!!!!! But i really appreaciate this relationship and i really do love her so much so much..... I ever told her that i will love her to infinity and i really did.. Until today my love toward her is increasing dramatically but my feeling that her love toward me is falling like throwing rock to the air and fall to the ground. When we first meet she really love me and we really happy. But because of FUCKING TAWAU MALAYSIA CALVARY damn stupid bitch dog people who makes us quarrel and our relationship was damn not good... Before we couple, she had one bf and i take her from the guy hand.
I will tell the story on the next message i think.... HMMMM.... Now is 5.37 in the morning and i think the sun going to rise soon.... So good morning to me... Oh ya.... Today i been to casino again... What do u think??? I bring 10 dollar to make a bet... But u cant even imagine what i done in the casino..... Using 10dollar i won 120dollar.... Really funny and great ya???? 10 to 120??!!!!
What a luck... I will try it everyday mayb... Using 10dollar to play... Mayb that's only way i can spend my time happily and no stress no sadness...... DAMN FUN!!!!!!!! U all should try.... That's what my feeling and my journey finding light from darkness.. Wish me luck....
Yesterday night, i damn miss her. Before she sleep i sent one message to her.. Written " Biee.. Sleep tight.. Muakss... Miz u... Love u... Remember msg(MESSAGE) me when u wake k? " Reply " Ok.. Love u too.. Nite ... Sweet dream" But unfortunely, when i woke up at 3 in the afternoon, i not even receive a gud morning message from her.. What else could i ask for???? Only one simply message is hard for her.. What do u think if i ask her to tell me what she doing or anything..She cant even done it for me... NONE... Today i miss her so much...... She did the same thing.. It still fine because i'm already feel nothing about her action and attitude. I wait and wait. I wait for one afternoon but still not even a miss call.... Do u think she still love u???? How come someone love u can don't care what u doing or anything..... But she reli did it.. She can ignore me for few days then when she realise that something is missing then she will find me back.. Then she will act worry or something like that... Is this call love?? Mayb this is love or mayb my way of loving people is wrong.. I reli need accompany and love.. I really hope that she can always message me.. So that i know that what she doing and she really miss me... We live so far away... I studying in aus and she studying at malaysia.. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ......
Now i really thinking that should i need to break up with her or i must break up with her????!!!!!!!!!!! It's really stress me up because i really don't know how to continue this kind of relationship. It's FUCKING SUCKS................!!!!!!!!!!!!! But i really appreaciate this relationship and i really do love her so much so much..... I ever told her that i will love her to infinity and i really did.. Until today my love toward her is increasing dramatically but my feeling that her love toward me is falling like throwing rock to the air and fall to the ground. When we first meet she really love me and we really happy. But because of FUCKING TAWAU MALAYSIA CALVARY damn stupid bitch dog people who makes us quarrel and our relationship was damn not good... Before we couple, she had one bf and i take her from the guy hand.
I will tell the story on the next message i think.... HMMMM.... Now is 5.37 in the morning and i think the sun going to rise soon.... So good morning to me... Oh ya.... Today i been to casino again... What do u think??? I bring 10 dollar to make a bet... But u cant even imagine what i done in the casino..... Using 10dollar i won 120dollar.... Really funny and great ya???? 10 to 120??!!!!
What a luck... I will try it everyday mayb... Using 10dollar to play... Mayb that's only way i can spend my time happily and no stress no sadness...... DAMN FUN!!!!!!!! U all should try.... That's what my feeling and my journey finding light from darkness.. Wish me luck....
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
About me.
I woke up around 12.30 in the afternoon. I heard someone is knocking my door,
when i open the door i saw my homestay sister. She handed me a letter which written O.H.M.S.
I was wondering what letter it will be and who send this letter to me. When i open the letter what attract me at the particular moment, it was my face. When i read the letter, i realise that i get caught of driving in illegal speed. I feel so funny. It was my first time.
Whole day i lay on my bed, play dota and eat lunch.
I not even step out from my front door. It was so unnatural for me. Then i realise that i was sick. I having flu and fever. Somehow or other, no one care. I have a cute girlfriend. We have been couple for almost 2 and half year. What make me feel sad the most is she's changing to a person that i dn reli like. The first time i knew her, the feeling she gave me is cute, generous, friendly and needed someone who protect her. But somehow, now the feeling that she give me is pretending to be and adult or matured. She thought that she knew the outside world very well and she thought that her friends was the best and is the best. She even treat her friend niccer than her boyfriend.
This year in Jan, i struggling to see her and spend holiday with her.
So i keep beg my mom and my dad to sponsor me to find her at Ipoh. When i reach there, i gave her a surprise but she feel nothing. When the first second i met her, i feel something very different. But it's still fine. We went a lot of place and we also when to resort where's her dad was working there. When we reach there, the only thing she do is take out her handphone message her friend and ignore me. In her mind i'm not even exist. I felt tired and sad. i continue my story tommorow. Hope who read this message, please think before u really put heart to someone that u like or love. Don't love someone too deep.. U cant turn back.................
when i open the door i saw my homestay sister. She handed me a letter which written O.H.M.S.
I was wondering what letter it will be and who send this letter to me. When i open the letter what attract me at the particular moment, it was my face. When i read the letter, i realise that i get caught of driving in illegal speed. I feel so funny. It was my first time.
Whole day i lay on my bed, play dota and eat lunch.
I not even step out from my front door. It was so unnatural for me. Then i realise that i was sick. I having flu and fever. Somehow or other, no one care. I have a cute girlfriend. We have been couple for almost 2 and half year. What make me feel sad the most is she's changing to a person that i dn reli like. The first time i knew her, the feeling she gave me is cute, generous, friendly and needed someone who protect her. But somehow, now the feeling that she give me is pretending to be and adult or matured. She thought that she knew the outside world very well and she thought that her friends was the best and is the best. She even treat her friend niccer than her boyfriend.
This year in Jan, i struggling to see her and spend holiday with her.
So i keep beg my mom and my dad to sponsor me to find her at Ipoh. When i reach there, i gave her a surprise but she feel nothing. When the first second i met her, i feel something very different. But it's still fine. We went a lot of place and we also when to resort where's her dad was working there. When we reach there, the only thing she do is take out her handphone message her friend and ignore me. In her mind i'm not even exist. I felt tired and sad. i continue my story tommorow. Hope who read this message, please think before u really put heart to someone that u like or love. Don't love someone too deep.. U cant turn back.................
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