My life

Life really kinda tired.. Is really hard to become mature. Once u starting to become a adult.. A lot of responsibily and stress that keep wondering around u. Once u settle a problem another problem will starting to hitting u again n again. Sometimes i reli wanted to give up.. I dono how long can i stand it.. I'm onli 19.. Tere's still long way for me to continue my life and nw is oni d starting point.. But somehow i reli feel tired and out of energy. I owes care bout people, i don wan to make my parents to worry me all the time... I think i'm big enuf to settle my thing and let them feel proud n stop worrying of me.. I really wan to go back to them, i miss my family so much. Somehow i think i couldn't make it so soon... All because my stupidness and damn stupid mistake that i have made.. If i din do it i damn sure i can go back to see them.. Nw i having some sickness that no one knw how it occur.. I visit doc n they oni ask me to wait for few week n it will recover.. I reli hope wat they say is true.. Because of this fucking sick i reli feel hard to work.. To talk especially......

My gf... I really really love her.. But somehow the way that we love each other is totally different.. I really hope that she can place me in her first place.. She did promise so but she told me yesterday that she can promise it dis moment but the other moment she will break promise.. I dono y she can treat her bf such a way that hurt her bf.. She did admit it but if u love someone so deep cant u try to change it.. The matter fact is not change.. She will automatically treat me as wat other couple do.. Maybe her fren surround her doing the same thing so she did so.. But i reli hope she can change.. I do everything is for her.. She is my strength and my everything.. I can do anything she ask.. Is it my fault to love someone tat way? But for me i think is the normal thing n right thing to do so.. We should be happy to couple but y oni i d one wo did such thing and she can do it the other way round? I'm reli reli tired.. But i reli cant lose her.. Mayb from the first day we couple my heart edi stick to her..

2 weeks more she coming.. I hope i can give her fun n happy time.. I hope i reli can.. But for my situation i think is reli hard for me to do so... I LOVE HERRR... All i nid is love n nice treatment from her... If i can get tat i have strength to do anything.. PLEASE....